Vaso
I met Vaso at Karver bookstore. He and I have had a lot of good talks. Here is his Livejournal and his Couchsurfing profile. For his birthday (25th) I got him this domain.
June 18 -
I saw Vaso last night. Here is something I'd like to show him.
http://www.unac.org/learn/wwwp/
He thinks. He reads my writing. Maybe he will influence someone else someday. I've lost a lot of my motivation to write. I'm not getting the support, encouragement, help that I need to stay motivated. It's easier to just take pictures. Most of the time when I take a picture, no one bothers me. Often, people like it. A few people don't want me to take a picture I want to take, but so far taking pictures is more pleasurable than painful for me. Writing means thinking. And feeling. And caring. All of which are painful. I spend a lot of time trying to stop my pain. The pain of seeing what is happening in this country, in the world. I feel nearly completely alone. The people I feel most understood by, I only know online and maybe I will never meet. So I don't get enough support from them to meet my needs. So I just get one day closer to death/disappearing or killing myself. "Leaving" as one person said. I don't know when I will leave this new little country. Or this place called "Earth" in the language called English, by the people who call it that. Is it English, or Ingles? Or some other variety?
"They" decided to put a fence up around the parking lot by the hostel. Did they ask people to vote on it? And even if they did, would they have convinced them they needed it before the vote? Manufactured consent?
Here, pessimism is reality. A high school student told me she didn't think the national head of education would read a letter we wrote. I said, "So you feel pessimisti?" She said, "No, realistic." So pessimmism is realith here. As in ll the former communist/socialist countries I have been to. Is it also the reality in capitalist countries? Will Montenegro be a better place to live 5 or 10 or 20 years from now? Will the teenagers be happier? Will they have more freedom? Will they be able to spend more time doing what they choose to do? Or with their friends? Or traveling? Will they feel more "empowered"? What does that really mean anyhow? I am pretty sure it is an Americn term.
Which reminds me of the UN page. It looks like it came right out of an Americn lesson plan.
"Students will....
"Objectives"
Will lesson plans like that make Montenegro a better country?
I liike the content I saw, but the format and what it reminded me of didn't thrill me. It reminds me also of student teacher countracts.
If Vaso wants to he can google "teacher student contracts". Just now when I checked it, my writing was number two. Tsk tsk. It has fallen from number 1. In case he doesn't see my pare right away, or if someone else "ccan't be bothered" (as the British say) to google it, here is the direct link
Now I will try to figure out how I can get away from the things that depress me here and get into nature. It would be nice to have a helicopter, ha ha, Or xa xa has they would probably say here.
ps I "can't be bothered" to spellcheck this and I can't see the screen very well.... so sorry if there are a lot of mistakes.
Also - I googled "a world without weapons" that's how I found the UN Canada link. Maybe Canada will be a world leader one day. Maybe after global warming has changed things it will be a nice place to go to the beach in January or February. ha ha